Our Lil Tooter

Today was a very emotional day for me. For those who know me you already know I am a worrier. Ok, scratch that, I am probably borderline extreme worrier. I find that now that I have Reagan my worrying definitely hasn't gotten any better. The past few days Reagan has had her moments, but the WORST is trying to find out what the problem is. I just want her to tell me what it is so I can fix it! This morning she was in the worst mood, just screaming and crying on and off and I did all I could to try to fix it. Food...no....nap....no...diaper change...no...just hold her....no....play with every toy she owns...no...bottle....no AHHH what is it?? Were her teeth hurthing her? Were her ears hurting her? Does she have gas? Was she just throwing a tantrum? I have no clue!! But there was something different about the way she was crying this morning that made me really upset and worried. I could tell she was in pain.

Now Reagan has ALWAYS been a screamer, she has never been "normal" when it comes to crying, but today it was worse. It was like I couldn't soothe her. I was so upset, I called Darrin and told him I wanted him to come home. Then I called my friend and asked her to come over to witness what was going on. I needed someone to be there with me while all these ridiculous thoughts ran through my mind. (is it me or at times like these does everyone always think the worst?) She agreed that Reagan was acting different, so I made a call to her doctor. Her doctor told us to come on in and about an hour later, we headed to the doctors office. After hours of on and off crying (both Reagan & I) we went to see what was wrong.

It was in those moments where you realize how much love you have for you child. There was not one thing that I would not have done to make her happy. I kept thinking...what if something is really wrong? Is this the first sign of something terrible? All while I am just full of emotion, tears and completely heartbroken. I do not know how I am going to deal with moments like these for the next 18 years! Wait more than that! I'm sure my mom is the same way to this day when it comes to things I am upset about. There is no one that can ever make you feel better than your Momma. Just hearing my moms voice on the phone makes me feel better and there really is no greater feeling than between a Mom and their baby.

So back to the story. Of course Reagan fell asleep in the hour before I took her in and she woke up completely happy. By the time we left the house and arrived at the doctor's office she had tooted 5 times! Ok farted, these were not little toots! She was completely fine the entire time at the office, just laughing and smiling with everyone. She was back to the Reagan I love so much. She was checked out and looked absolutely perfect. The nurse said it was probably just really painful gas. I know it may sound funny now, but I know she was in some serious pain.

So all that over some gas!!! Geez! Is there some kind of Mommy pill out there I can take in moments like these?? I guess her doctor is going to get to know us REAL well!!