Tonight will be only the first time I have ever left her with anyone other than family. (and leaving her with family has only been a few times) So, this is very tough for me, I am taking a BIG step. Since we live away from all our friends and family, we don't ever get to practice leaving her for a few hours or for the night. I am used to being with her 24/7. And while there are times I wish I could take her over to her grandparents house, for a little me time, I secretly love having her with me all the time. I don't even think I remember what my life was like with out her.
I made a list and have been setting things out so she knew exactly where everything was. (diapers, formula, snacks, food, pjs, cell phone numbers) I know it's only for a couple hours, but I am a worrier and I can't help but think of all the things that could happen while I am away. It is my job to protect her and to make sure she is safe, and for a few hours, I won't be able to do that. We have a schedule, I know what she wants, what her cries usually mean and how to make them stop. I know how to make her laugh, which I love to do, and I know what games to play. I know when she is hungry, how much to feed her, when it's bath time, when it's time for bed and how she likes to sleep. All the things that only her Mommy knows.
I know this is way bigger for me that it even is for Reagan. The next day she won't even remember and she might even have a blast. For me it is very hard. I am going to try and not check my phone every other minute or call her every 5 minutes. However, in order to do this a glass a wine is a must, or maybe even two.
Reagan be a good girl tonight. Your Mommy loves you very much and I will be there in the morning when you wake up. Goodnight princess, I love you.
4 comments:
That is the sweetest thing ever! I even got a little teary-eyed at the end :) Go have a couple glasses of wine and have a blast, you deserve it!
aww, so sweet erin! I hope you guys had a fun time along with some wine!
I need to see a pic of your night out!!! Justin and I are having ours tonight and moms staying over. It's sad to leave 'em, but we have to have Big People Time. Y
our such a sweet mommy
Aw sis even after talking to you and tearing up, I still teared up reading this. You are such an amazing mommy and Reagan is so blessed to have you and Darrin as parents. That was definitely a big step for you and I am so proud! :)
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